New to this.......
Mixed emotions I don’t know how I feel, freezing my eggs… am I being for real?
It was something I didn’t really think about, the older I got the more I’d doubt.
I always told myself I was going to be fine, was putting my career first really a crime?
I stare into space try figure out the pain, wipe away my tears as I feel ashamed.
I listen to music try not to go insane, avoiding eye contact with everyone on the train.
Why didn’t I follow the rules and play the game, maybe then I’d have no one to blame?
I could have relied on a man and had it all, drive his car and drop our kids off to school.
The truth is my career never came first; it was always there for me when I was hurt.
Today I’m present and it’s a strange day, this was a game I didn’t want to play.
Scans and appointments, injection galore, pumping my body till it gets sore.
I have no idea the pain this will bring or how many alarm bells this will ring.
Multi cycle treatment to build up my reserve, preparing for the future I deserve.